Always thinking of you & missing you Jr. / Sis Alot of painful memories come flooding back to hurt really bad this week Jr. You are like Mom and Daddy always in my thoughts but I do my best to try not to think of the really painful stuff but this week has been a bit harder for me to do that. Of course I always think of you most this time of year because of hunting season and it's so close to the holidays when you should be coming home to visit. It started off with me being reminded of the song that we both liked so much and I couldn't help but want to listen to it for a while. Then I had painful reminders of how your friend Ronnie passed on and tears started falling for a few hours. Like you he is missed. I used to pass him on the road nearly every day (or that's what he said) and I was being stuck up he'd tease with me. lol I just didn't always recognize his vehicles. I really miss him teasing with me no one could be more friendlier than Ronnie was. It will soon be almost a year since he left this life and he's on my mind alot. Such a tragic way to leave this world the way he did. You guys are so missed. Then last night I got up cause I wasn't able to sleep and as I walked back to the computer desk I happened to see something that stopped me in my tracks. I saw this hat hanging with all the other hats on the rack. I immediately thought of you but for some reason I just couldn't recall what it was about the hat that reminded me of you. Then it hit me like a bolt of lightning. It was identical to the one we placed on you at your funeral. I'm just so grateful that I realized how it got there as quick as I did or they would have been picking me up off the floor. His dad had gotten it for him no recalling the one you wore was just like it. Now here is the somewhat funny part. I recalled how your oldest wanted that hat and we took it off of you and gave it to him knowing you would have wanted that. And we bought your other son one too. I thought about how I hoped that the hats bring them so comfort when they're hurting. So since it was all I could do to fight back the tears I put the hat on and it worked to help me feel you closer to me instead of spending the rest of the night crying. I think hubby just lost one hat. lol Like he would actually notice it with the other hundreds he's got. I miss you my sweet brother. There's never been a day when you aren't missed and there never will be until we meet again. I love you Jr. Always have always will. xoxoxo
It's just horrible without you Mom / Sis I miss you all so much but Mom I am so lost without you. The holidays are sneaking upon us and it hurts so bad to think of going through it without you. Without Jr. Without Daddy. So many others have gone home too soon and it hurts so bad I can't even put it into words. It's a beautiful day but here I sit in tears as I do so many times just feeling so lifeless. Every day is hard without you all but some days like today are just unbelievably painful. I fixed us a pot of stew and a pan of cornbread the boys will be out a little later to take them home some for supper. I miss your cooking mom. I miss us just talking about things like that. Like planning what we'll fix for dinner tomarrow night. Little things like that would mean so much to be able to do once again. I wrap up in my heaviest of robes at night and pretend your arms are still wrapped tightly around me. I spent so much time alone after Jrs death hiding my pain from you that I allowed the pain to rob me of so much precious time I should have been spending with you. I'm so sorry Mom if I could have only known you'd be leaving us so soon too I'd changed everything. I'd cut out what's left of my heart mom just to do it all over again. To get a chance to make up for that lost time. I could just not come to grips with loosing Jr the way we did. I guess I never will. I held on to the hurt and anger so tightly that I couldn't see how much you needed me those last days. Alot of pain has been placed upon this family that never should have been. It didn't just hurt Jr. it hurt all of us who loved him so dearly. And those that caused this pain that never ceases will one day have to face God and give an explaination for all that they have done. And there are those who have failed to do many things that the Lord has commanded us to do as Christians that are going to have to give an explaination as to why they didn't do what was commanded of them. And the obvious judging and false accusations that have made they will each have to be answered for. Every tear that has been fallen will have to be answered for. He knows all things. Nothing will remain hidden. If it were not for the man I love with all of my heart and my two brothers the lonliness would be more than I could bear. I miss those who once called me friend who have forgotten that while I needed time to work through this never ceasing grief. It's a constant battle to keep looking up to Jesus Mom. I know you had faith in me and I'm struggling daily and nightly to not let you down but I'm finding it harder and harder each day. I want to leave all of this heartache and lonliness behind Mom but I promised to do my best to care for your sons and it's not as easy as simply believing sometimes that everything is going to be ok. Yes they are doing great and you would be extremely proud to know that but for how long mom? I try not to think about what's up around the next bend and trust in Jesus to see me through but I'm just a weak woman Mom and it's so very hard to do that some days. I sure wish Jr were here to help me out like it was suposed to be. But I can only hope that and believe that He met you at those pearly gates and you are both at peace now. But until I get to know that same peace I could really use alot of courage and strength to keep one foot in front of the other. I miss you all tremendously what I wouldn't give to just hold each one of you close to me for just alittle while. You are always in my heart and always on my mind. I love you all so much only God knows. I will go now just really needed to say these things. I'll see you soon mom in a little while. Remember always in a little while. xoxoxo
Missing you so much Mom / Sis I miss you so much Mom. I have never had anything hurt so much in all of my life. And you know I've done my share of hurting. The hardest part is feeling so lonely all the time. There's so many things I miss about you. Your love mostly. I lost one of my best friends Mommy. And no one can ever take your place. I keep asking God how long must I wait to see you again. So many things that only you and I shared that I can't talk to others about. What am I supose to do for the rest of my life without you? It hurts so much Mom. I miss you love you and I need you with me. I don't mean to be selfish but I need you more than anyone knows. I miss my mother and friend. I love you!!!!!! xoxoxo
Happy Halloween to 3 precious angels' & ur family / Tammy K.
special angels & for Rosemary, Ottie & fam. w/love / Tammy K. An Autumn Graphic For
Happy Birthday My Sweet Brother / Sis (sis)
Jr. I am so sorry I can't add a photo for you. I've worked since Valentines Day to learn how to scrap my own works and it's so disheartening when this site will not work when it comes to anything you want to do. Months we are hit with virus trojans you name it and then they claim it's fixed but it's still infected. Then when they finally do get it fixed I am never notified until a month or longer after it's been done. I missed out on all the major holidays to fix up your site nicely for those holidays and now I can't even post a birthday photo page. I am so hurt by all of this. I don't know when this nightmare is going to end. I am trying to learn how to make my own web site for you hopefully that will work out soon. I am trying to learn as fast as I can but it's not going so quickly. I will keep doing my best.
I miss you every day of my life and I always will. I wish you good luck fishin' today. I know it will be a very beautiful day. Tell Mommy and Daddy to eat lots of cake too ok. I know it must be a beautiful cake and the best tasting one ever made. I miss you. I am not going to say alot because I am just so hurt over this web site and all the disappointments it has put us through. You know you are loved and missed terribly.
All my love till we meet again....xoxoxo
Happy Valentine's Day! / Wm. Scott &. Samantha Myers
Thinking of you / Jo-Ann Pacenta Lauren's Mom (Friend of Rosemary )
Wishing you peace during the holiday season and always dear Rosemary.
Thinking of you at Christmas time. / Valerie Haslett Ian's Wife. (^i^ Friends )
I hope that you have a peaceful Christmas Rosemary.
I send love and hugs for you and for the loving family that you have lost, I have missed being here for a while, but you know its not easy and I had to stay away for a while because of medical reasons. You and your family are in my prayers and I send you all good thoughts for a better New Year. God Bless you all.
Christmas is so near, thinking of you and your precious angels. May you be blessed with a gentle Christmas and many happy memories of your mom and brother. Sending lots of hugs & love to you Rosemary.
Merry Christmas Sweet Angel. / Marcelle Mum To ^I^ Daniel Coorey (Friend connected by angels )
Wishing you all a peaceful and safe Christmas God Bless
Love and hugs
Marcelle xox
Special Delivery from Our Home to Yours / Dianne/Mom Of Angel Nicholas White (Connected by Angels )
Merry Christmas / Ky Christmasate Porter Christopher's Mum
Happy Holidays! / Carole Mom To Angel Heather Bates (connected by angels )
From Our Family to Yours / Family Of William Myers
Merry Christmas / Shelia-Wife Of Angel Kenneth Dueitt (Connected by our Angels )
Merry Christmas Angels
Know you are thought of this special time of the year. Angels wrap your loving arms around Rosemary. May she feel your love, peace, and comfort through the Christmas season and always. God Bless you Rosemary and know I am always here when you need me. Sending Love & Hugs your way. Shelia
Thinking of you on your angel date / Jo-Ann Pacenta Lauren's Mom (Angel family friend )
Dear Rosemary,
Keeping you always in my thoughts and prayers. I don't know if it is getting any easier for you, but my heart goes out to you after the losses of two loving people in your life. I hope you know I am always here if you want to talk. I miss our emails, but I know you are probably still grieving the loss of your loving mom. We travel this journey together even if we are not in touch just knowing the sorrow. Take care my dear friend and I hope it helps to know others care.
Remembering Your Precious Alvin / Carol Pizzi (Angel Debbie's Mom )